Well Well, I guess

now is as a good a time as any to start. I have so much to say, but I really don't know what or where to start. My son is singing a song about slipping into the lava. That is kinda the way I feel. I feel like my life could be slipping under something. But it isn't, for one reason. God isn't going to let me. But at the moment, when you feel the water/lava closing around you, you forget that. Then you all of sudden look up, and you see His hand trying to pull you out. That is actually the easy part for me, where it gets hard, is when I try to walk away again, thinking I can make it on my own. I don't do it intentionally, but I can't seem to continue to trust that He is on his throne. When/how do you learn to leave it there? I pray, do some bible study, and I feel peace, then..........it all starts again, and I get sad, melancholy, and try once again to fix it. I can't fix it. There is no way. My problem is, I am a fixer. I feel like if someone, mainly my husband, is upset about something, I can tell him why he shouldn't be upset, how he has seen the situation wrong, and then it will all be ok. Well, he doesn't care why I think he shouldn't be upset, if anything, he is more upset because I just told him how I feel. But I can't make myself SHUT UP! Goodness, I understand the statement "Silence is golden" now if I can just learn it. So, through life's problems, I am once again reminded, that when I fix it, it gets worse. I can't fix it, God can. I just have to learn to be patient and trust God's timing in fixing it. Ho hum! Anyone reading this can please add me and my family on your prayer list for the day, we need it. Thanks!